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Thursday, March 27th, 2008
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so I'm sitting here waiting for the girls to call me to come pick their drunk asses up from a big costume party. they all look amazing. shannon went with a couple girls she works with to this party and they went as pin up girls. shannon looks so incredible.
I decided that I'll go pick them up wearing something complimentary to their attire. hopefully they'll be impressed. I'm sitting here with my hair all combed, in a nice shirt and a tie, the jacket will go on when I leave. sadly I can't start drinking because I have to go pick them up. hopefully they'll call soon and we can party here for a bit.
I'm between photoshop projects. photoshop keeps freezing and I can't save anything so I have to wait it out. there's a picture of shannon that I took tonight that'll be fantastic on a t-shirt. hopefully she'll agree.
speaking of t-shirts. if I haven't mentioned it before now; a fellow I met a few months ago wants to start his own clothing business. mainly t-shirts. he needs a business partner and I'm the guy he wants to work with. I'm very happy about this. his idea is pretty broad and will wind up being a very successful idea when we get it going. it's looking like we'll be up and running in about a month if all goes well. as with any retail type business, advertising is key. we have alot of really cool promotional ideas. lots of free t-shirts, tons of stickers, it'll be really cool. so if anyone actually reads this crap, when we get everything going, tell everyone you know to buy stuff from us. it'll all be awesome and inexpensive.
we're hoping to get in with some indy record labels and sell some cds, maybe band merchandise also.
so photoshop is still not cooperating. it's cutting in and out. it was working for about 5 seconds until I switched tools and it's locked again. I don't know what the hell it's problem is but it needs to stop it. alright I had to close it.. I'm not happy about this. doing a repair install. hopefully this will solve the problem. if not I'm going to be even more pissed than I already am.
it's sad that I'm so desperate to talk to someone.. anyone right now that I'm just typing whatever is on my mind into this box here, that I intend to post for the world to see.
I'm going to stop now and continue my adventures. I'm off to pick up the girls in about a half hour.
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Tuesday, March 25th, 2008
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..although at this point it almost sounds like a good idea. I still need a job. if this business with adam works out, I'll be set though. it's just a matter of finding something in the mean time.
so I finally talked to the girl at savemart yesterday. I've known all along that she lived across the street from me, and I've wanted to say something.. you know me, though.. as morrissey once sang ( ..shyness is nice, and shyness can stop you from doing all the things in life you'd like to. )
once my life is on track I think everyone will feel better.
especially me.
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Thursday, March 13th, 2008
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interesting quote there for a subject. I would award points for knowing what that quote is, but I doubt anyone is reading this...
then again.. I did a google search earlier involving my car and my journal showed up in the search results. I was pretty shocked, but that's kind of neat. if I talk about enough stuff I could be famous.
so I'm sitting here in my underpants smoking and having a beer. it's almost midnight.
I almost sold the monte carlo today. actually I hope to hear back from the guy. maybe he still wants it. I need the money. I have some of grandpa's ashtrays up on ebay too. looks like someone is interested in those too. I have plenty more where those came from. theres 102 more of them in the box that the 9 I have up came out of.
( Blah blah blah blah blah )
well I ran out of steam for this post. it's been sitting for 2 days. maybe I'll post again later.
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well here I am. I'm still sick and it's awful. I'm not just sick anymore, I'm re-sick. I've somehow managed to reinfect myself. I'm right back where I started. sinus infection.. the whole bit. I'm convinced that I'm going to die. I want to be better like right now.
so cadell just made it home from the celtic faire. I wanted to head down there, but I'm sick and wanted to spend time with shannon. it wasn't very productive time, we took a nap. she headed off for work a half hour ago. all I've done since is have a snack and sit down to write this post. as you can see, I live in such fun and exciting times.
next news is that I need a job or equivelent immediately. I'm almost ready to lean towards prostitution as a serious option, but right now it's still too hillarious a concept for me to even consider.
looks like I'm going to partake in some smoking activity with cadell. I will finish this post when I've completed the task at hand.
I'm still sitting on the couch.. doing the same thing I've been doing all day.. looking for employment. so far it's not going well.
it's just about bed time. I can't fight this cold anymore. I have to lay down.
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Wednesday, March 5th, 2008
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this cold still isn't gone.. I'm still coughing and I'd prefer not to be. it's 9am. shannon and I are going to breakfast with some people she works with because it's dani's birthday. that'll be fun, except I'm coughing and my ear plugged up earlier so i can hardly hear anything.
the cats are currently going insane. well ben is. a few minutes ago, he flew out from behind the chair at sweetie, who was less than thrilled.
I need to do something else now.
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it's a gorgeous day today. little chilly.
saturday night I went to modesto with cadell. he's got an odd relationship going on with a pair of really nice people. they're alot of fun. we partied it up. shane and jeremy came by for a bit. shane offered me a job, which I plan to take. I need to call him.
I drank one too many beers and wound up throwing up. my mission was successful. not that I enjoy throwing up. I don't. but I was on a mission to be that drunk. that sounds alot worse outside of my head.
the battery in my laptop is dying. I fear I won't finish this post.
I'm not entirely sure I have much more to say, except that I've misplaced a book that I really wish I hadn't. I think shannon will enjoy reading it. it's just a matter of finding it. or I could buy another copy, which I might do. hopefully I'd get it before she goes on her trip.
anyway, I'm off.
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Saturday, March 1st, 2008
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here I am sitting on the couch. it's 12:30 in the PM. my nose is 3/4 clogged and so is my throat.
there's alot of things I could do today. for one, like I mentioned last night, take the recycling and get money, then get more beer and perhaps lunch. the second thing I can do is get a battery for my car and deliver it to the people who want to buy it. that would acquire a bit more money.
I also need to clean out my car. it's pretty nasty right now. I've been driving a different vehicle for several months anyway. did I mention that I wound up with 4 vehicles? I have a 1984 monte carlo, a 1970 chevy pickup, a 1983 volvo 245, and a 1992 ford ranger. I intend to sell all of them and get something cooler. most of them won't bring me much money, but all of them together will net a decent amount.
in other news. I'm out of cigarettes, or rather smoking my last one.
I think I'll go play a game for a bit.
anyway, I didn't come back to this post until now, sadly. it's like a day later.
I'm currently in the process of getting a headache. I know this because one of my eyes goes fuzzy for a while. it's happened so often lately that I'm pretty sure it happens to the same eye every time. maybe I have a brain tumor or something.
so my cat officially has his own myspace page. his biggest fan, my friend whitney insisted that he was so cool he should have his own myspace page. so he does.
personally I hate myspace which is why I don't have an account myself. I think myspace is ridiculous. shannon got on me last night saying "after all your complaining and bitching about myspace you have an account now.." I calmly replied with "no.. I don't.. ben does. it's as big of a joke as myspace it's self." so setting up an account for my cat is actually my anti-myspace statement. I intent to post that in there somewhere.
so if you have a myspace and would like to be ben's friend you can find him here
my eye is so fuzzy right now I can hardly see my screen here, so I'm off to do something else for a while.
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Thursday, February 28th, 2008
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as the title implies, I really have to pee and shannon is in the shower. I'm not sure why I felt the need to share that with my journal here.. probably so I can I read this later and laugh about it.
I'm watching a show with video game reviews on G4. theres debate in the house about whether to get a playstation3 or an xbox360. I'm indifferent on the matter.. we have plenty of things to keep me occupied, and since my thumb doesn't work console video games are really difficult for me.
I'm still really sick. I'm not happy about it. we got back from picking up dani yesterday and shannon and I both crashed out at like 11:00 and then got up at 11:00 this morning. she feels about as well as I do. I've never been one for taking cold medication but I have been this time to keep myself not so miserable. it's less satisfactory than I'd like it to be. what I want is to not feel sick anymore and these pills are just not cutting it.
we took the garbage to the dump today. that was quite an ordeal. someone had been throwing random items into one of the garbage cans and it was just nasty. it's all gone now though. we are garbage free. tomorrow we do recycling. I'm actually excited about that. last time we went we had a truckload full. according to the ticket we had something like 150 pounds of glass. those were all beer bottles. all that glass and the cans and little bit of plastic we had got us almost 50 bucks. this time we have a ton of bottles again, as cadell would say, a metric assload of cans, and a considerable ammount of plastic.
also today we consolidated the kitty shitting areas. they've been using the same box for a while so we just moved them both out to the service porch. neither of them are happy about it.
anyway bathroom is free and I need to use it right now.
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Tuesday, February 26th, 2008
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well it's got to be the plague.. that's my irrational thought, of course. the non-retarded part of me knows it can't be the plague because cadell survived and shannon is getting better.. damn me and my shitty immune system. it's so busy protecting me from my joints it can't stop this cold.
I just want to be able to breathe again.. as I sit here with a lit cigarette.
so on top of the rattling chest and clogged (yet running) nose, I'm having some serious pain in my stomach. I'm positive it's an ulcer this time. the pain is blinding. I've never felt pain quite like this. I figured getting tattoos would be the most painful thing I'd ever do. I was pretty happy about that. but I slept through most of it. this ulcer business, I can bearly stand up.
( jabbering about the cats and a bunch of other shit no one cares about )
I'm currently discussing education with cadell.. I will return to this post later.
ok I've returned.
as I was saying something blah blah kitties.. ok new topic;
this nyquil is making me insane. the dxm is alot heavier than I remember (not that I've ever done it recreationally or anything.) there's alot more tylenol also. I'm all shakey from the inside. I hate tylenol. you know, you overdose on vicodin a couple times (unintentionally, mind you) and you can never ever have tylenol again. word to the wise there.
so I just watched "30 Days Of Night" with shannon a few hours ago. it was a pretty neat movie. shannon's all about scary movies and I'm finding myself enjoying them more and more. the end of 30 days of night kind of pissed me off, but I give it serious points for originality. I don't want to ruin the movie for anyone so I won't go into detail on that. the vampires in the movie were pretty awful.. which is a good thing. I actually didn't like to look at them at all. they have weird teeth. earlier today we watched dawn of the dead. that was a neat movie too but I was really irritated that they stayed in the mall for the entirety of the movie. I guess I'm just not one for localization in movies. I never get out of my world except when I'm watching movies so I expect to go a few different places during my hour or so in this movie. maybe I'm just a dick with expectations that are too high for movies.
cadell and I are doing some yahoo chatting. he's in the other room. I can hear him typing. I can hear him laughing at what I'm typing to him..
I've once again lost my steam. I'm out folks..
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Monday, February 25th, 2008
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it's official.. I'm going to die. I can't believe how sick I am. shannon and I both have this stupid cold and we're both half dead. I'm just happy we're together. I think she's asleep.. or not, she coughed. thanks to the satellite tv we have now, we get 4 brillion channels. the only thing on worth watching right now is the second mighty ducks movie. I'm convinced that there's something cool on the military channel, I just don't have the energy to hijack the remote. I used most of my energy to get up and get my laptop to do this post.
what I want more than anything right now is a cigarette, but I really shouldn't.
does anyone have any idea how hard it is to eat crackers when you can't breathe through your nose?
anyway.. I can't sit up anymore, I need more nyquil and a snack.
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Sunday, February 24th, 2008
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well, the weather has thwarted my gardening plans once again. looks like thursday is supposed to be a nice day. I'm happy about that. I'm not happy about how sick I am though. I'm not happy at all about that. cadell brought home some kind of cold. shannon has it pretty bad and now I'm getting it. I cleaned the kitchen with my last bit of strength for the moment. the counter full of beer bottles was starting to get to me. next round I'll empty the dishwasher.
that's about all I can think of to add to this post. to sum it up; I'm sick, the weather sucks, and I cleaned the kitchen.. the end.
I'm off to play age of mythology with cadell..
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Tuesday, February 19th, 2008
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well I cleaned out my flowerbed where my morning glories live. I planted 27 seeds that I found in seed pods that fell off the dead parts of the plant. in the front of the flowerbed I planted some wild daffodils, they were growing up on the hill behind my house so I dug them up and transplanted them. I hope they survive. there's going to be 2 nights in the upcoming week that I'll have to put plastic over them. I'll be really happy if they actually grow.
I finally got my hair cut today. I feel a little better. I could still use a little happy in my universe. feeding my depression beer seems to be helping.
I've lost my steam for this post. maybe I'll try again later.
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Saturday, February 16th, 2008
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I've made a deal with myself that I should start posting every day again. who knows it might make me feel better in the long run. I currently feel awful still. I'm convinced that it's just one of those moods that happens here and there and that it'll fade. I'm not sure what caused it or how to get rid of it, but I'm going to lose my mind if it doesn't go away soon.
it's currently 1:20 in the pm as I type this. there's going to be some yoga happening in my living room around 2:00. 2 pretty girls do yoga in my living room like every day. I'm certainly not complaining. today, though, instead of watching them do yoga, I think I'll go clean out my flowerbeds. my yard hasn't recovered from the winter. for the last week we've had beautiful weather. I hope the cold is over for now. I want to get some new plants in my yard and make it pretty again. the flowerbeds are going to get some serious attention. it's a shame all my potting soil is now mud behind my house because of how sudden the rain snuck up on me and the lack of a dry place to store it.
my yard was beautiful at the end of the summer. hopefully it'll be even prettier this year..
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Friday, February 15th, 2008
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well according to the "would you like to post?" thing, it's been 39 weeks since I've posted. it's about time. I'm sure most of you have forgotten that I exist, which is fine.. I've forgotten that I exist as well.
I'm not sure where to begin. I have alot to tell you, dear live journal. the coolest thing is that even if you don't care, what I've typed after I hit post exists long after I've forgotten about it.
I'm in quite a mood today. not so much foul as tragic. as you can see I've updated my mood icon to show that I feel tragic.
There are two things that would make me feel better, both are impossible as I've found out in the last hour. the first thing would be to get my hair cut. I headed down there a bit ago only to find that once again a parking spot for me was out of the question. this is the 4th day in a row I've been down there to acquire their services and their either closed or the parking lot, and reasonably close parking areas are completely full. I could walk down there, but it's cold and I needed to go to the store.. figured I could do both in one trip, but I was upset so I just came home and here I am. the other option would be to hang myself, but I have a few things I want to do before that becomes a viable option at minimum.
I'm not sure if I've mentioned this at all, but I'm going to type it out to hopefully help myself deal with it, the last year of my life has been the worst year I've ever endured. I've somewhat survived, but an enormous part of me has been beaten to death.
( Suffering is all that lies ahead )
so that's a good chunk of my year. my heart is immensely broken at the loss of my grandparents. I'm still recovering. I may actually never recover.
it's time for a new start and new life.
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so livejournal has changed quite a bit in the last year. as you can all see I'm not so good at checking it these days.
life has really dealt me quite a hand in the past year or so. I'm not entirely sure where to begin my story.
I guess I'll just go with the current events. I'm not sure how much of an attention span I have.
so my grandfather had back surgery on the 16th of last month. surgery went well, but he wound up with some nasty post op hiccups. the medication they were filling him full of was killing him. luckily we got him home and he's recovering in a hospital bed in our living room. my grandma, we know she forgets alot, but she's ok. she's been getting worse. it's finally down to the proverbial wire. I'm in charge. unfortunately I don't want to be. I don't trust me to be in charge yet. it's almost too much for me. my mom has been around alot more lately. that's comforting. of course jimmy and cadell are around when they can be. I'm not sure that they understand how much I really need them.
next up... oh my god.. I went to the coachella valley arts and music festival. it was alot of fun. we saw so much cool stuff. and so much awesome music. the circumstances under which I went were not exactly the way they were originally planned, but .. we all know how things go.
which leads me to the event that's left an awful taste in my mouth since it happened;
I... yes I.. breifly had a girlfriend. was a very good friend of mine and things seemed to work out really well. stupid me, I honestly thought things would work out minus sex (because it's not my thing) and yeah it didn't. all of a sudden someone appeared and took my place. right in front of me. she explains to me that she's a lesbian, I can't expect her to change, and now she can't seem to understand why I'm so pissed. naturally the story is a bit more involved, but that's the gist of it there. moral of the story: I can't actually trust anyone, can I? I've also learned that I guess telling the person that you're so fond of how fond of them you are is a bad thing. gifts are no good either. taking them to dinner is totally not cool so really I was just screwing up all over the place. at this point.. I should know better.
I've lost my attention span unfortunately. so I'm off to enjoy the rest of my evening. for more information on any of the above stories, I'll be happy to tell you the whole story, including illustrations. all you have to do is ask me and tell me where to send the email.
goodnight friends.
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Saturday, April 1st, 2006
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well I'm not sure if I should feel satisfied right now or if I should be vomiting. I feel minimally sick to my stomach, and with plenty of good reason, which I'll get to explaining shortly.
As a bit of an update to my relatively eventless and solitary existance, in which I spend most of my time scared out of my wits even though I know it's unnecessary.
( the sky is falling )
until next time, friends.. until next time..
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Saturday, January 14th, 2006
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so as I sit here, I have a decent cold and my good ear is pretty well infected. it hurts, it sucks, but there isnt' much I can do about it. my eustachian tube is so swolen and hurting that earlier I actually was thinking I had infected teeth. I crashed on the couch for about an hour earlier, I had a crazy dream that I was bleeding out of both ears. I hope that isn't a sign of any sort. I'm hungry but thanks to my stupid infected eustachian tube my jaw hurts so bad I'm afraid to eat anything. hopefully I won't suffer any further hearing loss from this event. I already have one ear that doesn't work. how come that one couldn't get infected? actualy I know the answer to that question and the answer is "because that would be too god damn easy, and it just can't happen that way."
in other news, the cat is currently asleep after tearing around all day. actually he crashed on the couch with me when I took a nap. he's been really good since we got him, he is young though and he really likes to play. none of us are used to a young cat. he's got a ton of toys, most of which he hates. he has a catnip mouse that is kinda furry, I think it looks like his fur, but it's like leopard spotted. he really likes that one. he actually carries it around the house with him. he's acted up a couple times, only one was really bad, like I managed to hurt myself running after him. this is of course after he did a backflip off my bad knee and took me down. other than him getting pretty hyper, he's learning pretty well how things work. he's big for such a young cat, and we forget that he's so young. so far he hasn't had any problem adjusting to new people. he's not afraid of people in the slightest. he gets a litle confused when the head count goes up when he's not looking. zack came by the other night and ben (the cat) was totally confused. probably because zack looks like his older bother, cadell, but totally isn't cadell. I'd be confused too.
so ben will come when I call him, but he totally ignores my grandma. I'm actually glad that he attatched to me the way he did (of course there is the occasional assassination attepmt, but that doesn't apply here), I figured he'd hate me after like a week or so. I'm the one that tells him no, and I'm the one he gets mad at. I'm also the one that picks him up and holds him when he requests it.
I need to figure out a way to brush him and have him enjoy it rather than keep biting me. the extra hair needs to go somewhere other than onto my sweatshirt. I am allergic, but I love cats too much to let that get in my way. also we need to keep the fur under control for jimmy's sake. ben actually really likes jimmy, he'll go lay down next to jimmy, but rarely attempts to claim jimmy's lap as his own.
so this new cat thing is working out pretty well. my grandparent's absolutely adore ben. they talk to him and pet him. so I think my original goal of giving a well deserving cat a home, and at the same time relieving stress in our household, has been successful. ben is as awesome cat, and my grandparents and I could definately use some stress relief and have our blood pressure lowered. I think it all worked out just fine.
I intended to update a little better, but this is all I could come up with. I'm losing my knack I guess..
until next time..
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Wednesday, December 28th, 2005
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so I did a crazy thing today. I have a new man in my life. he's younger.. about 8 months. gorgeous brown tabby. with the help of my dear friend, cadell, I've adopted a feline companion. he's 9 pounds of cute attention loving kitty. he's soft to the touch, and enjoys having his belly scratched.
the story goes as follows:
so I've been in a strange state since the loss of my 13 year old siamese best friend. it's weird to not have anyone to talk to in the middle of the night. cats are brilliant therapists. they listen and love you unconditionally. you can make them happy just by letting them be near you. on with the story, so cadell had gone with me to the humane society, just to take a look and for me to see if maybe the time was right. well it wasn't that time. besides they had all the kitties in their kennels because it was nearly closing time. we decided last night that we'd go down again, only a little earlier so we could actually see the kitties running around and pet them. so we're walking around, petting kitties, enjoying them. so we go through where the cages are and there's this little guy running around, so I kneel down to pet him, he comes right over to me (with a bit of coaxing) starts purring and seconds later he's made his way onto my lap and I'm holding him. he stayed like that for a good 5 or 10 minutes. finally I'm like "ok kitty, I've got to get up." so I stand up, put him on the floor, and he instantly attatches himself to my leg. cadell says "I don't think he's going to take 'no' for an answer." so we ask the ladies at the desk about how we'd go about adopting him, and they told us what we needed to do, so we came back to my house, discussed it with the grandparents. they were pretty excited, they just played it off like they weren't. so we get our cat carrier and cadell and myself head back down to the humane society. we go inside, I fill out the forms, give them the required donation, meanwhile cadell goes out to get the carrier. so here comes cadell with the carrier and the lady says she'll go load up the cat for us. so we're ready to load him up and go home. can't find him. he's MIA. just plain not there, so cadell, myself, the 3 ladies and a guy that worked there are all hunting for him, calling him, cracked open a can of food, nowhere to be found. cadell and I go outside to look around a bit. a minute or two later the lady comes out and goes "we found him." we go back in and they proceed to explain that the guy had gone to check on top of the kennels, there's carriers on top and the cat liked to hide between them or behind them, he poked one of the soft carriers and there was actually a cat in it that moved a little and meowed. the cat I had adopted had loaded himself into a carrier and was just hanging out. he was already ready to go. in the car on the way home he was silent, hardly moved, he had no problem being in the car. he's a little scared in the house still, but that'll fade. this is his castle now. as long as I'm around he won't have a care in the world, except maybe about finding the most inconvient place to nap or maybe finding the most dangerous thing to chew on.
here he is laying on the couch
and here he is a little closer up
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Saturday, December 17th, 2005
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alright folks, I have a link for you. my good friend cadell sent me this earlier and now I'm passing it on because it's damn funny. it's very original, and I'll leave it at that..
will self destruct in 5
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Friday, December 9th, 2005
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so everytime I sit down to update, I lose everything that I was going to say that made me think that updating was a good idea. like right now I'm completely blank. it is 1:21 in the pm, here I sit, minimally hung over. I need a shower more than anything. I'm sure I smell like cheap whiskey, cigarettes, and what's left of my aftershave if I even smell like it at all anymore.. really my aftershave kinda smells like cheap whiskey anyway.
so I've developed an intense liking for radiohead. ..to think I hated them with such firey passion for so long.
random information there, my mind is minimally fragmented today. minimally is an understatement, really..
as I mentioned previously, I was indeed drinking last night, I don't do it often anymore, and I'm now remembering why. I guess I'm not as young as I used to be. it's amazing how much of a difference a year or two can make.
I'm thinking a shower is in order sometime soon..
looks like the jimmy fairy has made his way into the house..
good day, friends..
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I look nice.
decent.
uggghh.
could be better.
I hate everything.
good, for once.
